Monday, June 9, 2014

Aloof - by Christina Rossetti (1830-1894)

THE irresponsive silence of the land,
   The irresponsive sounding of the sea,
   Speak both one message of one sense to me:--
Aloof, aloof, we stand aloof, so stand
Thou too aloof, bound with the flawless band
   Of inner solitude; we bind not thee;
   But who from thy self-chain shall set thee free?

What heart shall touch thy heart?
What hand thy hand?
And I am sometimes proud and sometimes meek,
   And sometimes I remember days of old
When fellowship seem'd not so far to seek,
   And all the world and I seem'd much less cold,
   And at the rainbow's foot lay surely gold,
And hope felt strong, and life itself not weak.

Saturday, June 7, 2014

I dreamed - For F. J. J.







I dreamed I held you.
And not just waking, whimsical daydreams
of light and innocence.

But in the fullness of night when visceral passions
Infuse every muscle with knowing.
I held you.

I reached through my skin.
Held you warm, and earthy in my arms.
Minute perfection, blazing and pulsing with life
Vital and healthy and whole.
Enveloped in the divinely crafted,
Interwoven nest of my hands.

Once, I dreamed I handed you to your father,
Whose brow is your largest mirror,
Whose heart is likewise etched
With the knowledge of your being.

Your existence is not for scientific speculation.
Nor a weapon in spiritual revolution or political debate. It is fact.
True as the existence of all the heavenly bodies.

The stars, of which you are made,
Are not merely theoretical
For humanity's frail inability to touch them.

For F. J. J.
Jennifer D. Behnke - June 7, 2014 - 4:35am

Friday, June 6, 2014

Clouds - by Denise Levertov


The clouds as I see them, rising
urgently, roseate in the
mounting of somber power

surging in evening haste over
roofs and hermetic
grim walls—

Last night
As if death had lit a pale light
in your flesh, your flesh
was cold to my touch, or not cold
but cool, cooling, as if the last traces
of warmth were still fading in you.
My thigh burned in cold fear where
yours touched it.

But I forced to mind my vision of a sky
close and enclosed, unlike the space in which these clouds move—
a sky of gray mist it appeared—
and how looking intently at it we saw
its gray was not gray but a milky white
in which radiant traces of opal greens,
fiery blues, gleamed, faded, gleamed again,
and how only then, seeing the color in the gray,
a field sprang into sight, extending
between where we stood and the horizon,

a field of freshest deep spring grass
starred with dandelions,
green and gold
gold and green alternating in closewoven
chords, madrigal field.

Is death’s chill that visited our bed
other than what it seemed, is it
a gray to be watched keenly?

Wiping my glasses and leaning westward,
clearing my mind of the day’s mist and leaning
into myself to see
the colors of truth

I watch the clouds as I see them
in pomp advancing, pursuing
the fallen sun.

Thursday, May 8, 2014

Questions

Measurements
Statistics
Geometry
Asymmetry
Anomaly
That's all they see.

Wiggling
Wriggling
Hiccoughing
Growing
Thriving
Boy under my heart

How can I keep you, hold you safe?
How can I give you
Your father's stubbornness
Your brother's compassion
Your sister's wonder
My strength?

How can I show you a lifetime
in the moments we will share?
Should I hire a symphony
to play for your arrival?
Should I have a quartet
waiting to sing you to heaven?

Will one hour in my arms be enough
to last you an eternity?
And how will I remain
Without your sweet presence?
When you return to the Love that created you
How will I go on?

Friday, March 21, 2014

In praise of Art songs

A note to younger singers in praise of art songs: If you know you are going to be growing into a role but are not right for all of it yet, instead of focusing on just learning the arias look for comparable art songs either by the composer or a contemporary. If your teachers are assigning you art songs, shut up about how you want to sing arias and learn them first. Figure out what is useful for your development. Take them as studies for the larger things you'll encounter down the road. Seriously, it is in your best interest.
Example: I spent about 2 years working on, living with and trying out Wagner's Wesendonck Lieder. I worked through the technical aspects with my teacher, my trusted coaches and brought them to just about any/every master class teacher, conductor and coach I could get in front of to sing them. This year I was offered my first Brünnhilde in Die Walküre. Yes, the notes are different*, but the line and the approach to phrasing, the melodic motifs and harmonic progressions are so similar, that I have never doubted for a second that I could sing her and learn it all relatively quickly. The ease, technique, beauty and muscle memory learned in the easier-to-shop-around art songs have given me all the tools to make my first go at this auspicious role so much more enjoyable.
Finally, as my wonderful colleague Shawn Thuris pointed out, you are the vulnerable entity in an art song. There is no mask nor character to hide behind. This is huge in developing your approach to a character. What can you bring to her/him that no one has before? You won't know unless you find out what you personally have to say in that rep, and there is no better place to find that out than in an art song.

steps off soap box

*the most extensive Wagner quoting Wagner I've found thus far is "Weh mein Wälsung" in Act II Scene ii direct stealing of : "Wohl, ich weiß es" from Im Treibhaus (Wesendonck Lieder)

Thursday, January 30, 2014

Snowdrops at Midnight


The muffled stillness
lands effortlessly
white petals in the night.
The grey world
enshrouded silently
layers of downy wool.

The small house
creaks wearily
shelter against wind.
Three slumbering hearts
enfolded caressingly
birds in deep nests.

But you and I
remain restlessly
watch fires lit in the night.
Our hearts are together
woven seamlessly
silken fibers of life.

In December
appearing unexpectedly
reshaping my every horizon.
Longing, Comprehension
awaiting tacitly,
your sweet face. - Jennifer D. Behnke - January 31, 2014

Friday, January 3, 2014

Advent evening


Crystalline flakes
drop from the heavens
encircling this sacred space
in silence.

Devout assembly
escape from the frenzy
gathering to find peace
in stillness.

Warm glow
gleams from the candles
illuminating the silver tabernacle
in splendor.

Your sacrifice
raised high by trembling hands
inundating my sinful heart
with gratitude.
___________________________________________
Inspired by particularly restorative 5:30 mass this past December.
Jennifer D. Behnke - January 3, 2013